O, Love…
When will you come my way?
January 21, 2010
Flew into Yuma, AZ today, arriving at 7:30 pm. Headed straight to the restaurant I was supposed to be at an hour prior – got there at 8:00 pm. Ate a salad and some soup, chatted with the doctors, signed the bill. Headed back to the hotel for sleeping. Fly out of Yuma at 7:27 am. Not even 12 hours in this place. Wow.
January 18, 2010
happenings of the week.
This is my best friend.
This past week, she turned 27, so we celebrated with food, friends, words of appreciation, and wonderful new gifts.
I hope you felt celebrated, friend. You are an overwhelming blessing to my life.
Trace’s boss gave her tickets to the Blazer game on Friday night. Such great seats. We were behind the basket, which means we were given cheer stix…I’ve always wanted to be able to use the cheer stixs, so was really excited. It was a good game – Blazers won AND we got free chalupas!!!
Arm Update:
My arm continues to heal. I started physical therapy this week, which was an interesting experience. I really didn’t think that I would be put out as much as I have been by this whole incident. I thought that once the cast came off, I’d be good as new and able to use my arm like normal. Instead, it has been like starting over. I couldn’t unbend my elbow properly for like 2 days. And my wrist can barely rotate, which means that I look like I have Barbie arms whenever I’m doing anything…it’s really quite funny.
Here is my current wound from the pins…not so pretty to look at. 
And this is what my skin currently looks like due to the cast. So old lady arm like. Sick.
January 13, 2010
I have been in a hard space lately; a place of sadness that seems to remain constant. I believe there is purpose in it, I believe there will be an end at some point, I believe the Lord is teaching me through it.
Today, this spoke to me.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ALONE WITH GOD?
“When they were alone, He expounded all things to His disciples.” Mark 4:34
Our Solitude with Him. Jesus does not take us alone and expound things to us all the time; He expounds things to us as we can understand them. Other lives are parables. God is making us spell out our own souls. It is slow work, so slow that it takes God all time and eternity to make a man and woman after His own purpose. The only way we can be of use to God is to let Him take us through the crooks and crannies of our own characters. It is astounding how ignorant we are about ourselves! We do not know envy when we see it, or laziness, or pride. Jesus reveals to us all that this body has been harbouring before His grace began to work. How many of us have learned to look in with courage?
We have to get rid of the idea that we understand ourselves, it is the last conceit to go. The only One Who understands us is God. The greatest curse in spiritual life is conceit. If we have ever had a glimpse of what we are like in the sight of God, we shall never say – “Oh, I am so unworthy,” because we shall know we are, beyond the possibility of stating it. As long as we are not quite sure that we are unworthy, God will keep narrowing us in until He gets us alone. Wherever there is any element of pride or of conceit, Jesus cannot expound a thing. He will take us through the disappointment of a wounded pride of intellect, through disappointment of heart. He will reveal inordinate affection – things over which we never thought He would have to get us alone. We listen to many things in classes, but they are not an exposition to us yet. They will be when God gets us alone over them.
In other news, I had my most favorite thing as part of dinner…fresh green beans…love it!!
January 12, 2010
O, sweet freedom.
Waiting to get this thing off…Are we ready yet?
Ummm…I’m not sure I’m ready for this….
OMG…look how nasty my arm looks. Trace says, “Your arm looks like you’re 80 years old…” Thanks!
Here’s the pins that have held my arm together for the past month…Sick!
January 10, 2010
And I say, “Oh, that I had wings like a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest;
yes, I would wander far away;
I would lodge in the wilderness; Selah
I would hurry to find a shelter
from the raging wind and tempest.”
January 6, 2010
The rain stopped for a bit today. I feel like it was a special gift to help me keep my sanity.
Went to Newport this past weekend.
Today, I am wishing to be there again…o, love.
January 3, 2010
being pursued…
I read the story of Adam and Eve this morning and was struck by the way the Lord pursues them in the Garden. When they want to hide, the Word says, “9But the LORD God called to the man and said to him, “Where are you?”.
I love that His first concern isn’t about what they’ve done, where they’ve been…simply, “Where are you?”
I hear the tone of the exchange between the Lord and Adam as loving, somber, tender, disappointed and yet understanding.
How much our Father desires to know us…how often we fight being known.
Thank you, Lord for your constant asking, “Where are you?”
My response…I don’t know, help me find my place.
